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I Wanna Die

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Note: These are lyrics for a song, which one can appreciate for their literary value and irony. They will most likely not be helpful to you if you consider killing yourself or if you contemplate that topic. Many comments along those lines have been added by readers who found this page through search engines and I recommend you don't treat anything you read here as sound advice regarding killing yourself. Better go and speak to someone who's competent to discuss such topics instead.

More Adam Green lyrics:

I wanna choose to die
and be buried with a Rubik's cube
and sleep inside the big blue buildings
while the sweet disease drives through.

There's a bakery in the night sky.
I wanna die because the government lied.
She was a man with herpes,
floating in a yellow stream,
running through the windows backwards,
kissing all the buildings clean.

Know his appetite for hardcore tapes -
and orgiastic party games.

She woke up in the highway
with arrows pointing at her face.
Later that day in gym class,
she ate a mouthful of anthrax -
go to sleep.

Adam Green, I Wanna Die

August 2, 2003, 17:02

Tagged as adam green.


Comment by Anonymous: User icon

all english will be killed by many forigh don’t forget we never permit english

November 16, 2003, 12:40

Comment by shayla: User icon

ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm life sun

April 25, 2004, 21:08

Comment by kole: User icon

life sucks. can anyone help me off

December 10, 2004, 15:47

Comment by kole again: User icon

nevremind i found another way. the knife never looked so good

December 10, 2004, 15:49

Comment by julie: User icon

Like vines through the shadows of the mind hands collapse giving way to time we watch our angles fall bringing death we look in shock to see nothing left

December 17, 2004, 1:20

Comment by Anonymous: User icon

thats crazy man there is no reason to end your life. Ending your own ife is a weak route to take. And most importantly that life that you wanna tke isnt even yours, God created you, yoiu are His, and if you harm what is His you will have to relive the act of your suicide in the deepest pitt of hell. Think about that while you look at that knife.

January 21, 2005, 6:04

Comment by Anonymous: User icon

i agree i wanted to die ever since i was 7 and i’m 15 by the way!!!!

January 23, 2005, 3:51

Comment by Anonymous: User icon

Your poem sucks monkey balls.

January 29, 2005, 10:45

Comment by Anonymous: User icon

Your poem sucks monkey balls, give up writing. Julie is pretty good though. None of you want to die, thats why your just talking about it on the internet. Suicide isn’t a weak way out, it’s the most couragous thing you can do, running head first into the unknown. People who commit suicide should be honoured, they are more than we will ever be.

January 29, 2005, 10:49

Comment by Zath: User icon

i thought it was a good poem.

March 21, 2005, 22:16

Comment by giNa: User icon

Nice poem, but… life’s GREAT, with CHRIST!

March 23, 2005, 7:32

Comment by steve: User icon

Why do some people that dont want to die. but i go on and I dont want to be here anymore

March 31, 2005, 5:28

Comment by cas: User icon

fuck god and christ if they care about anyone they wouldn’t let peopl feel so bad they want to die EVAS DONSLAY!!!!!

n i agree wif craz-pat if u really wanted to die then why the fuck r you telling it on the internet. get a life.

April 1, 2005, 12:19

Comment by Mariam ElMasri: User icon

I wanna die, I wanna die, cuz I hate people I hate peopleo from head to toe I wanna die, cuz they took my laptop away I wanna die, cuz I cant publish a book I wanna die, cuz I dont have enough mony to buy A video camera, I wanna die, cuz I dont have enough mony to buy another laptop, I wanna die, cuz I found out that my crash loves my uncle dughter I wanna die, cuz I cant make my crash loves me.

May 7, 2005, 14:40

Comment by Anonymous: User icon

we r all going through some tough things but we cant give in to dying… Y take the easy way out??? fight …. Fight for your right to live and F—- everyone else

May 12, 2005, 2:30

Comment by cas: User icon

ok my family barly has enough money for food ur f ucking selfish if u wanna die coz u don;t hav the money for all these f ucking expenive things and if ur crush doesn’t lik u its not the end of the world ether, and well its ur own fault if u hate every not ours.

July 10, 2005, 6:33

Comment by anonymous: User icon

if you survive a suicide attempt than you are in for hell. sure, the psych ward seems to be a safe haven at first, but it’s hell. and the system will screw you over, by that i mean the medical system. so in reality suicide isn’t worth attempting, and i speak from experience. the best thing to do is to get help right away if you feel the need to kill yourself, because there is always someone or something that will be wiling to help you. This is what i have learned through experience.

July 11, 2005, 9:54

Comment by Anonymous: User icon

how’s your crush gonna like you when you don’t even like yourself?

July 14, 2005, 19:18

Comment by melanie: User icon

Oh man i want too die so bad but i have so much to live for both my children and my husband are dead and its like i want to go with them but i have not been chosen yet oh lord please come for me i am so overburdebd and so sad i can take no more please come for me soon

August 23, 2005, 12:00

Comment by karlos: User icon

yeah,, adam green, top man

August 26, 2005, 12:30

Comment by Daniel Song: User icon

Life is Hard. I want to live. Even though I do not know, what life is.

September 16, 2005, 6:17

Comment by eitan: User icon

Way up above, high in the sky angles look down and watch your every move

you would wonder, why do i want to die? to get rid your family’s love.

Into shadow, lies hell a place like no other

why don’t you want to live life well? but just slip into an eternal sleep;a dead brother

But far far away, a new life is born a new child with an innocent life.

Light shines through to a body that is worn but to think not living long enough for a wife

just believe in yourself, trust that there are ones on your side.

think about it, before you arrive in hell that everything will be fixed as soon as that baby arrives.

I have been depressed, and i have wanted to die, but after you think about it, life is a beautiful thing and we should all enjoy every second of it, because life is a short thing. short but beautiful

September 23, 2005, 1:04

Comment by Anonymous: User icon

dont go with jesus…. he cant save anyone. its regular to want to die, just think about the times when you dont feel like dieing and think about what you would think then. and if you really feel like your life’s a waste, do things to make it not a waste. help people, donate money, and maybe find a job that you can risk your life in every day but still help people.

October 9, 2005, 6:16

Comment by shadowWasHere: User icon

the laptop brought me here. I screamed! noooooooo!!!!!!!!!!

October 14, 2005, 19:21

Comment by Anonymous: User icon

Dying’s easy.

Living is hard.

Have you ever noticed that doing the right thing and doing a hard thing are often one and the same?

October 15, 2005, 7:36

Comment by andy: User icon


ive been reading various forums on the net and agree if you are going to die, do it in a way that is fun or you wil be remembered (eg. ned kelly who still killed people.)

here are some ways to pass the time or have fun before you die:

  1. Take up graffiti. Vandalise this fucking disghusting world we live in cuz it aint gona get any better. you will become popular as your tag will appear everywhere.

  2. Get a girl.

October 23, 2005, 13:45

Comment by cas: User icon


god doesn’t exist and if he does his a fucking asshole for making people life so crap they’ll want to kill themself. people say its some massive sin to kill yourslef coz ur insulting the life god gave u but if he didn’t make it so crap in the first place u wouldn’t want to so its his own fucking fault. no one can prove if god real or not but i can prove he isn’t the almighty thing they his maked out to be, same with Christ. If he really died for our sins why r people still sinning and y r people still going to hell for them?


October 30, 2005, 4:46

Comment by i hate you: User icon

fuck you goths hahaha you all suck

November 2, 2005, 1:31

Comment by …: User icon

juss 2 quote sumone

Comment by : ¶
“dont go with jesus…. he cant save anyone. its regular to want to die, just think about the times when you dont feel like dieing and think about what you would think then. and if you really feel like your life’s a waste, do things to make it not a waste. help people, donate money, and maybe find a job that you can risk your life in every day but still help people.”

October 09, 2005, 6:16

k, iv bin suicidal b4 n iv attempted to do something about it, n even now (this has gon on for just over 5 years) i still get really depressed and self harm (not very often), but i no longer feel i want to die. Wen my friends found out about me bein suicidal they kept sayin how i shud turn to ‘god’ n religeon (im not religeous at all) n how it wud help me find the way to happiness…n i was sat thinkin ‘wtf how can i put my faith in somethin i hardly understand n dont trust’…n lookin thru this site i saw sum great points that wer made n also some of the religeous stuff, but if u think about it, these ppl want to kill themselves, depression and suicide can b the most lonely times n if they feel that alone then surely they cant feel ‘gods power’ (if they cud they wudnt feel as alone) n its ok for those who do believe, but those that dont feel even worse when they r told that they will “relive the act of their suicide in the deepest pitt of hell” (sounds fun lol) then i saw the post that i quoted above and ok maybe the “dont go with jesus” bit isnt quite to everyones taste it makes a hell of alot more sense. When yr suicidal lookin to ‘god’ dusnt always help, its much better to focus on things u enjoy like the environment, or just being with yr family n friends, ther r sum amazin things in this world even tho they r sometimes forgotten when things get too much. Whoever wrote it i juss wana say great post :)

November 4, 2005, 1:43

Comment by Undisclosed: User icon

I was eighteen years when someone managed to plant a bug in my head and I have been forced to live with it for over 20 years now. I feel I can hear voices of a man and two brats coming from ambient noises. These voices haunt me 24 hours a day. Only when I am fast asleep then these voices go away. I am forced to hear that bastard with sub-human intelligence always and continuously uttering words in my language. These bastard seem to be reading what goes in my mind and continuosly keep reacting in few words that convey something but always nothing useful. Probabaly they use computers to create synthesized voices and therfore they just utter meaningless words as no computers are fast enough to match the thinking power of human brain. I have a suspicion that innocent people are being used as pig for experimentation. They probably want to learn how a man thinks (what is better than to be able to read mind) and how he can be controlled. I know the symptoms are of schizoprenia but I have a feeling that this illness is just a myth and a cover for carrying our this experimentation. Now I have become a social recluse and I have no friends as this experiment has totally changed my personality from a lovable guy. I have to work very hard as these voices keep distracting me. I am managing to earn my living by using my brains (programming) and I think my mind will soon cop out and I shall not be able to do such work in future. I have no other means of living I only depend on mind for earning my bread and they have fucked my mind. But I am fighting real hard. Sometimes I think I might have to end my life on my own but at the next moment I feel so much anger for these bastards that I feel I should leave no stone unturned to bring these guys to justice. I know it can not be done in this world. So I will let these bastards suck all pleasure and happiness out of my life until I become full of hatered for them, I will keep praying to god that the way they have sucked life out of me the god will also return them in same currency. If there are such bastards who are conducting such experiments let the merciful god rot them in eternal hell-fire. Until then I will keep fighting and carry on my life come what may as I want to see these diry rascals rot in hell-fire one day. Many bad things can happen to a man. Sometimes you can blame yourself, some else or at last you can blame god. But I do not know whom to blame for the lefelong nightmare I face. I am sure this experiment is being conducted in my country as I hear the voices always in Hindi though I also know very good English. One day these bastard will cry with tears of blood for treating human life so cheaply and for destroying innocent lives for no reason. The god is so merciful to everyone. God always sees but waits… I hope the day will come soon when the God will hit them fiercely and teach them the sanctity of life.

November 4, 2005, 13:17

Comment by Anonymous: User icon

I win die because my life is not going any better,and I can not get a better job or better caree, And I am stick hear on this foucking earth and that fucking god who say he has lots of power. He only cares that he likes he has favers of people, I am not one of those people that he likes. I can not kill myself because I have two dogs that i love so much. If i kill myself who would love them the same as i do can some one do it for me

November 8, 2005, 1:08

Comment by Anonymous: User icon

I wanna die because my life is not going anywear,and I can not get a better job or better caree, And I am stick hear on this foucking earth and that fucking god who say he has lots of power. He only cares for those he likes he has favers of people, I am not one of those people that he likes. I can not kill myself because I have two dogs that i love so much. If i kill myself who would love them the same as i do can some one do it for me

November 8, 2005, 1:20

Comment by cornered: User icon

There is no heaven or hell, no almighty god and no prince of darkness. Religion is nothing more then man’s feable attempt to understand that which they do not. Christians believe the explanations of the bible which was written 2000 years ago by the same dumb idiots who thought the world was flat. What the fuck do they know? They saw some lightning in the sky and, unable to explain it, concluded it was the work of humanoid gods who lived above the clouds and chucked lightning bolts at the earth below. Look at Christianity as a whole and you see human beings as the very center of the universe, with the almighty god creating everything humans see (earth, trees, animals, the moon ect.) solely for them. Human beings are typically self-centered so this is no suprise from men that tried to explain LIFE without the benefit of scientific or logical thinking. Think about this: death is scary to the living (because everyone is born programed to self preserve and maintain). So religion tries to ease this fear of dying by telling of an afterlife (heaven), which of course is infinetely better than this life, free of hatred, sickness and other realities. Animals, insects and other creatures of this planet are not admitted into the afterlife, only humans. And only if they obide by the rules set forth by their religion. What a dumb-ass and self-centered way to look at the universe! I can understand someone from 2000 years ago thinking like this, but in this day in age? [Oh my god-people, wake the fuck up! Centuries of revolutions are slipping past your reason!] Christians need to understand that LIFE is the miricle, not heaven, not god, not Jesus, not the bible, the clouds, the lightning bolts. You are what you are right now, and nothing more. You will never be reincarnated. You will never be a ghost or an angel. You are a miniscule miricle among a vast universe of gases, rocks, and alot of empty space. A walking, talking, self-aware, self learning, inquisitive, ever-evolving human being. The real mystery is why? Even those idiots 2000 years ago understood this mystery. Their explanation is god. HA! I’m not buying. God is nothing more then the personification of humanity’s inability to answer the why. Feeling down, wanna kill yourself? When was the last time you took a long look at the why? Ponder it: why am I here? Is there a purpose to my life? Why am I who I am? Why do I look like this? Why do I have two arms? Why do I breathe air? eat food? get bored? get emotional? sleep? piss? work? fuck? walk around this fucked up city and wonder where the fuck I’m going? What is this fucking planet anyway? universe? Ask why a million fuckin times and your final repeating answer will be: because that’s the way mother nature intended it. Ah, mother nature! My god. My devil. My enemy. My saviour. Mother Nature is the why, the force that drives everything in the universe. She’s a complete mystery; the miricle of miricles. She’s the reason why bears hibernate in the winter. Why zebra eat grass and lions eat zebra. Why humans get emotional. Why stars twinkle at night and why you only have two fucking arms instead of four. Mother nature is not a she like god is a he. There is no god, but there is a force behind every thing from viruses to supernovas, a force so powerful it commands your attention, respect and appreciation. Thank mother nature for this force. Thank her for giving you LIFE on this amazingly unique and beautiful planet, and thank her for giving you the chance to thank her. This will make you feel proud to be who you are and help you better understand yourself, and your problems.

November 10, 2005, 7:11

Comment by leatherface: User icon

i wanna die…but i won’t i wanna live…but i don’t i’m 20 years old, and i just wanna fold all alone walking this concrete stone can’t find friends can’t find love can’t find that great one up above 20 long years of involuntary celebecy this is no way to live my empty soul keeps telling me i work the graveyard shift so i can eat i go home to my empty bed just to go to sleep life was once a great flame destroyed by the rain i don’t believe anybody feels the same pain running in wrong directions being beat down by more depressions is there any meaning to all these life lessons? We’re all just guessing i hate everything and everyone but i really can’t help it it’s just been to long since i had your love and felt it i really did believe you were sincere when you told me that you loved me dear you forgot me a long time ago i never did because that was the only time those words were whispered in my ear…the only time for only me to hear

November 13, 2005, 9:10

Comment by Anonymous: User icon

i just wanna fucking die and see the world burns in fucking shitty hell i love evil, cause god doesnt exist fuck you all

December 3, 2005, 13:58

Comment by jammo: User icon

laters u tool if ud seen what if seen u would not even think or contamplate it… my missus took a whole months script all anti depressants and anti psychotic pills drank down with bleach aswell as cuttin her wrists and arms and shes got 6 kids u half arse…..fuck you.

December 8, 2005, 16:07

Comment by S2_Betrayed_S2: User icon

Everybodys looking for something, or someone. Find that thing, and never let it go.

December 12, 2005, 5:04

Comment by tom: User icon

i’m goin to go suicide soon i can’t take the pain no more

December 17, 2005, 4:56

Comment by Kate: User icon

Die if u wanna, but that’s the easy way out. Why would u be honored if you are too afraid to face life? I think it is just retarded that someone would want to kill themselves because they hate their lives. They were too busy thinking about sucide to think about a way to fix their god dam life!

December 17, 2005, 6:28

Comment by just bob: User icon


January 1, 2006, 8:55

Comment by rebecca jane killick: User icon

i have been self harming for the last two years and have cut my wrists and tryed to hang myself and cut my arm jubt below the inside of my elbow all because i have been abused and am very profoundly deaf please help m,e

January 2, 2006, 18:49

Comment by Nikki: User icon

I can’t deal w/ the pain……

January 12, 2006, 1:59

Comment by dee: User icon

i wanna die since so much sin i have done i wanna die, lord coz i dont feel beautiful life no more

please take my breath away coz breathing is a heavy things to do i dont need air i need forgiveness from people that i have lied i wanna die lord, die bfore darkness took me all the time

February 1, 2006, 5:53

Comment by life hater: User icon

hi i have my reasons to die but wut are urs? no one ever stops pickin on me y did god make me????

life stinks hells rocks heaven is stupid….

i’m 11 and i think this way…..

February 7, 2006, 22:25

Comment by paul don: User icon

i wanna die..sometimes.im paranoid and dont know who or wot i am.

February 10, 2006, 15:40

Comment by JP: User icon

i wanna die because life sux with the things ive done im surprised im not dead already sometimes i find my self Laying on my bed pleading to go home although im already home or so i thought but when you think about it home is heaven now all i need to do is find my way home

February 10, 2006, 19:00

Comment by honi: User icon

hey you have to help me i really want to die but not this fast ! help me please it hurts so bad ! please

February 13, 2006, 20:51

Comment by honi: User icon

im bleeding oh

February 13, 2006, 20:55

Comment by Robbie: User icon

ok guys, yes, life is hard. no one ever said it wasnt. but if you ever listened to those people who were left behind when their friend or family member killed themself, then you know how much pain you cause to those you leave. why not get some professional help, or at least express your pain feelings through some other avenue than a website about suicide. its brave sure, but its not the answer. its never the answer. take this from someone whose friend killed themself, with no word and no warning. please. life is for the living. everyone has strength, power, individuality and potential. its up to you what you do with it.

February 16, 2006, 3:24

Comment by Anonymous: User icon

Yes, it all hurts. It hurts very very deeply.

Life is nothing like what our parents told us, if they told us anything at all. It’s just so easy to want it all to stop, to stop right now, to make it be done and not have to feel anything so bad ever again.

I’ve got no clue what’s on the other side. I have no idea if there’s anything at all. At the best, it’s just nothingness, no self, no nothing to feel, hear, taste, touch or deal with. At the worst, it could just be exactly the same as it is now but with no exit. Forever pain, forever shame, forever feeling like everything I do makes things worse. At the worst, on the other side, it just never ever ever stops.

I don’t know much but what I know is that here and now, I can choose. I can act, I can do stuff to make it change. I don’t have to stick around people that hurt me. I can learn to fight back if that’s what it takes. I can learn to be better.

On this side of life, I can do stuff. On the other side, maybe, probably, I won’t.

I take my chances here and now.

February 17, 2006, 8:57

Comment by Lucifer: User icon

do you really wanna die or are you afraid to live?all i can hear in my ear is ‘i wanna die’,’i wanna kill myself’.its like an orgy of death in here. you people are pathetic.you talk and talk.you should listen,to each other.you could help each other. you need to stop crying and start to live.cause once you go.that’s it!lights out.Kaput! also remember when you die you wont get to see your funeral or the people you have hurt.For all of you seeking the spotlight. i could go on.but its useless.you will never listen.see you all down below! L.

February 20, 2006, 1:30

Comment by Bob: User icon

Hello, I don’t wanna die :) just thought I’d tell you

February 23, 2006, 22:18

Comment by Bobobob: User icon

I don’t wanna die, I like life…just thought Id tell you

February 23, 2006, 22:19

Comment by Mindless: User icon

Guys think more about how to live then how to die becouse we are all gonna get that for free anyway.

March 7, 2006, 19:44

Comment by yusuf: User icon

Hi everybody! I had been through the same thing at a certain period of time but thank to god who gave me the strength to ocercome this period. any one who wants to get in touch with me for help or something please feel free to contact me at : yboubker@gmail.com. and please know that in life nothing worth to die for. think about it just live your life as simple as you can.

March 22, 2006, 18:30

Comment by Joseph Anderson: User icon

Those who read this who read this I committed an over dose on some anti- depression pills. I was just lucky my step mom was told before i fell asleep or i would be dead. i remeber going out on a stretcher getting told hey your life is that bad kid. I didnt care what they were saying they didnt understand how i felt. As they were putting me in the back of ambalance the first thing they did was put oxygen mask on my face then started poking my for fluids. Then i past out and lost memory. When awakened my family was at my beside and had a breathing machine down my throat so i wouldnt quit breathing. My dad told i had been out for two days and all i remeber was total and utter darkness and little bits of screams and horrifying moraning like i couldnt describe. It took me another day or so to get the breathing machine out of throat which i gaged on for several mintues at a time. I was put into a the sycward for and they released me on good behavior and that i seek help. My dad told also told me that i fought they 10 people at once when we got to the hospital because they were trying to poke me with a needle. I have no recollection that i did that. i scared alot of trying to commit suicide and learned that i loved by so many people this life is to great just to give up. Yes we go through tough times getting are heart broken getting raped and everything you can think of someone has been through it . It is what make you who you are gives you strength when others cant. So please do not give death is not the answer

March 27, 2006, 21:04

Comment by flibble: User icon

The trick is not get coaught go somewhere remote and hang yourself or in front of train [must be very quick]

I hate me and I want to die punches self in face everyone hates me as well.

April 17, 2006, 15:37

Comment by fil: User icon

hey man, i once heard somethng like this

sometimes my mind fluctuates from love to hate cause i love you all and its this world i hate.

this was by e-town concrete an underground band

to be honest i think its the people and the power they reach that is fucked up. man im sick of life sick of the people running it and man, fuk it i dunno what to do, i mean you cant even feel comfortable to. well

May 1, 2006, 22:22

Comment by Tenaka: User icon

Listen up all of you.

I’ve contemplated suicide since I was 15. Now I’m 32….

I always thought at age 15 I wouldn’t make it to 21.

I have read through all the comments so far and as each of you contemplate what you’re doing on this site, then think of this:

Live life to the fullest, its all you can really do.

May 3, 2006, 12:14

Comment by AdmiralXolzo: User icon

My life is fucking depressing, ive been made fun of, hit by my father, my xbox broke, and my pc doesn’t support my mp3 player. It’s fuckin bullsht. I’ve been having this hate in my head since i were 13. i picked up a chair at school and almost murdered a student. I have to wear glasses now because i play on the pc too long and fucked up my eyes. anyways, i have this problem where when i sleep i yell swear words like mick (irish), spik (spanish) wop (italian) crout (german) gook (chinese) honki (white) nigger (black). i have fed my mind with violence and swears that my life has become shit. just now i’ve thrown away my picture of mary in my room because my life i shit and i hate god and satan for it. fuck! god can’t you make my mp3 player work? and let me be able to talk to someone without mashing their fuckin brains in. i want have an easy going life that is happy.

May 6, 2006, 23:22

Comment by nathones: User icon

you guys are so emo

May 8, 2006, 6:15

Comment by James D.: User icon

Hey you’re right it IS the number one google result. Thats oddly sad.

May 9, 2006, 2:19

Comment by JD: User icon

This world is a total lie. There is no point to spending day after day working when all we get to do ultimately is die. Everyone just ends up suffering and dying. Dead and gone forever. I just don’t see the point of any of it. I hate my life right now, which is why I have been thinking about all of this so much. I once had a great life filled with love, joy, comfort and excitement. Now everyday is a miserable train wreck and I hate existing. The worst part about life is when you do finally want OUT, there is no way to get there! I want to end this journey, now when everything sucks so bad that my skin is burning and itching and I can’t stand to even sleep, eat or do anything. FUCK YOU LIFE, I hate the suffering so much that I want to find out who is responsible for it and make them suffer! Someone please end my pain and misery! Let me die now, easy and painless, I just want it all to end…

May 9, 2006, 3:30

Comment by pup: User icon

thank u tanaka u r so wise, at 32, I’m 52 and still struggling. A passionate musician, just discovering art. Every action has a reaction. You think ending it ends with u. NOT. Every little thing u do effects someone/something. we might just be a grain of sand on the beach but each grain has a purpose.

Your job is find the purpose. And its hard sometimes. Very hard to know why you are here. Just like a video game you are her to complete a mission. What it is is anyones guess. But you are here for something. Like maybe I’m here right now for some reason I don’t know why, when all I want to do is end it to, but when I read tenaka’s words It spured me on to write these. I don’t have a religion or belief and I don’t know why there are people on this earth or care. But I have learned in 52 years of living that what ever changes effects, no matter how small u think u are it effects someone something somehow. The thought of a child like u is hurting inside or out hurts me. I suffered as a child, abused as a teen, and used up as an adult. As a musician I feel deeply about u. You think I don’t know u, well I know of u I’ve been there hurting and what I have learned is carry-on sometimes, you just have to carry-on. sometimes it gets better, sometimes it gets worse, but you are guarateed it will change. As all things change. The old song to everything turn turn turn there is a purpose etc… … well I don’t know about purpose but I think everyday there is a change to the good or to the bad there is a change. You can help make the change a little or a lot but everyone can make a difference. You are a grain of sand and a grain of sand can cause an avalanche. If u think no one else loves u I do. remember I do. I was feeling very much like ending it until I read tanaka and I realized You are just beginning You can change things, you’re not 52, you’re a grain or sand, and its a great big sand box, I love u , take care of each other and change the world, reach out to each other on here. u have opportunities with this environment to make such wonderous changes. Reach out to one another and shift the grains of sand to a better place. Don’t settle. Move on. Look up, look around don’t dwell. Don’t dwell. Its important to move. Either of mind or of body but move on. IF u are unhappy move on. MOVE ON. U can change without dying. U can move on by change. A change of attitude, of place, of tactic. Back away from something u r dwelling on. Find a new focus. Move the sands. u know how, I care, I’m watching the sands… when my life gets better I know u changed it…. thank u

May 9, 2006, 5:29

Comment by The beaten down teen: User icon

(The beaten down teen) It’s like everyday i feel so so shity. When i use to live with my bro and my sis (this was when i was bout 7-14) i would pick on my sis then get beaten up pretty bad and when i stop picking on my sis he would beat me up for the hell of it one time he threw a glass jar at my head and this other time
he took a metal chair and hit me in the head he was always beating me up and i could do nothing to stop him i would tell my grandma but she would say either u deserved it or quit fighting. I’vealways tried killing my self but i could’nt I also feel like nobody care’s for me or about me plus i have seizures to make it worse so i feel bad about that when i was younger my grandpa threaten me with the belt all the time also he took a match and burnt my wrist i really feel like dying i hope i will die from one of my seizures i hate my life i want to die seriously

May 17, 2006, 22:50

Comment by m13: User icon


What are u death? Every miserable soul tends to tremble once it feels your presence. Your impulse strikes the tyrans, like an unforgotten revenge, send from up above. But an unfortunate man, who feels broken from the burden of his life, he and his desperate heart, have longed for your sickle, and in the end, he dies in hapiness.

And he who is brave and fights in war, cryies out for you, venturesome, and he who is wise feels you and waits for you patiently without even becoming pale.

-What are you death? - An obcure shadow, good or evil, that changes its form as Man’s desires change through time.

May 20, 2006, 12:26

Comment by Anonymous: User icon

Nice poem I wanna die too

May 23, 2006, 19:55

Comment by the truth: User icon

fuck life it treats me like shit

June 18, 2006, 17:10

Comment by harlem honkey: User icon

i’m like most of you… i wanna die. probably won’t happen at my own hands. i’ll probablyy just be hella depressed my whole life and do nothing about it, just make others lifes shitty when they come around me. i’ve become recless-like, i’m white and i live in Harlem(NYC) and i walk around like i want to beat people up. i did just the other day and nothing happened to me. maybe someone will shooot me and get it over with for me. sometimes i’m happy like when i get some pussy. yeah that makes me happy durring the chase, but after i jsut wanna die again. hmmm. that’s why i smoke weed all day cuz it makes me forget to kill myself.

July 5, 2006, 23:08

Comment by cowardly piece of shit: User icon

I want to die, but I am too big of a cowardly piece of shit to do it. God, if you exist FUCK YOU!!! You cannot be both omnipotent and benevolent, to wit:

Nature of God

“Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able?
Then he is not omnipotent.
Is he able, but not willing?
Then he is malevolent.
Is he both able and willing?
Then whence cometh evil?
Is he neither able nor willing? Then why call him God?”
— Epicurus (ca. 341-270 B.C.E.) Greek philosopher, quoted from E. H., personal note to C. W..

If I may add, I’ve heard it said that God cannot change his law. Then he is not God. After the forbidden fruit episode in the Garden of Eden he could not say, “Okay, let’s forget this one little mistake and try again.” Nooooooo. The whole of humanity had to suffer because God could not prevent evil. He is not a benevolent God if he is God at all. God did NOT create man. Man created God.

I challenge you God, if your sorry ass even exists. Strike me dead tonight. I fucking dare you, you worthless piece of shit. If you don’t, I’ll be back here tomorrow to tell everyone what a lying piece of shit you are. Blasphemy is deserving of death? Well, kill me mother fucker.

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home loan mortgage corporations, food and agriculture organizations, internationsal finance corporations, north atlantic treaty organizations, paramilitary organizations, social security administrations, cardiopulmonary resuscitations, internationsal labor organizations, internationsal labour organizations, simulated military operations, federal deposit insurance corporations, federal nationsal mortgage associations, internationsal maritime organizations, world meteorological organizations, internationsal development associations, nationsal aeronautics and space administrations.

I could go on and on. Why because you are not God. If you were, you would kill me before I could post this. I like including abdications. Because if you ever existed…if you were ever a “king”, you certainly abdicated your right to claim that name. Again I say, “Fuck you!” I’d sooner worship a piece of dog shit than you. Dog shit is real. It exists in the physical universe. You do not. If you exist at all, you are a powerless nothing. (I started to type piece of shit, but even a piece of shit—a piece of DOG shit has SOME power (unlike you). A person encountering a piece of dog shit says to him/herself, “Fuck! I don’t want to step in that! It stinks!”) You, oh god of my fathers, are not visible, audible, smellable, tastable, or feelable. You are less than dog shit. FUCK YOU! Kill me now or you prove that you are a powerless son of a bitch. I fucking dare you.

It is now July 31, 2006. If I post again on August 1, 2006, it means God could not destroy me despite my “sin” of blasphemy. I’m here God. Bring it on you worthless non-existent malevolent mother-fucker.

July 31, 2006, 8:00

Comment by cowardly piece of shit: User icon

I’m still here…and I didn’t even have to resort to using a one-iron (the golfers joke about how to stay safe playing golf during a thunderstorm…always carry a one-iron cuz even God can’t hit a one-iron…that always stuck with me even though I don’t play golf). So God (George Carlin’s Invisible Man) didn’t kill me. I wonder why…I gave him every excuse he could have wanted. I would have welcomed death. Life sucks.

I was raised a Catholic believing that the Jews were God’s chosen people. God’s chosen people. Think about it. God’s chosen people…chosen targets, perhaps? Isn’t it ironic? God’s chosen people singled out as targets by the likes of Hitler? Singled out by islamists (themselves the epitome of evil against all of mankind)?

I love the fucking Jews. It would be great if they wiped out the evil of Islam. But God (the invisible man) fucks them over, sends them to concentration camps and ovens and sits in his easy chair as their ashes float by. Probably smoking a Cuban, or some Maui Wowie not giving a fucking shit. Flicking the ashes of his “chosen people” not lifting a finger against the islamists who killed 3000 on 9/11. Why should “God” lift a finger to save the innocent from the evil? No reason, I guess. S/He is God…S/He doesn’t give a fuck. S/He is God, and we don’t mean shit to her/him.

Perhaps George Carlin said it best:

“In the Bullshit Department, a businessman can’t hold a candle to a clergyman. ‘Cause I gotta tell you the truth, folks. When it comes to bullshit, big-time, major league bullshit, you have to stand in awe of the all-time champion of false promises and exaggerated claims: religion. No contest. No contest. Religion. Religion easily has the greatest bullshit story ever told. Think about it. Religion has actually convinced people that there’s an invisible man — living in the sky — who watches everything you do, every minute of every day. And the invisible man has a special list of ten things he does not want you to do. And if you do any of these ten things, he has a special place, full of fire and smoke and burning and torture and anguish, where he will send you to live and suffer and burn and choke and scream and cry forever and ever ‘til the end of time! But He loves you. He loves you, and He needs money! He always needs money! He’s all-powerful, all-perfect, all-knowing, and all-wise, somehow just can’t handle money! Religion takes in billions of dollars, they pay no taxes, and they always need a little more. Now, you talk about a good bullshit story. Holy Shit! — George Carlin Politically Incorrect, May 29, 1997”

So, invisible man in the sky…I’m still here. Ya missed.


cowardly piece of shit

August 1, 2006, 7:48

Comment by cowardly piece of shit: User icon

I just want you all to know, I think I’ve finally lost my fucking mind…Sorry. I won’t be able to contribute anymore. I’m just laughing a lot. And nothing’s funny.

August 1, 2006, 9:17

Comment by Anonymous: User icon

I like Adam Green, and this is a really good song :)

Too bad most people’s intelligence doesn’t go beyond arguing religion.

August 14, 2006, 19:15

Comment by Anonymous: User icon

whatev, life is a piece of shit but I WANT TO LIIIIIIIVE

not just because i know that life will be better in 2007, but to keep screwing everyone over.

August 20, 2006, 8:37

Comment by jairo: User icon

it’s true as hell, I wanna die since I was 10, since all the tradegy started in my life, but whan can I do?, only wait for that moment when that dream finally occurs, I just wonder will it be slow and painfull or fast and easy?

September 16, 2006, 0:05

Comment by deathexplorer: User icon

Well well what nice posts we have above :). So many want to die, some argue with them trying to convince them to stay alive and a few debate about religion. Well i’ll be the three at once as i noticed that i have three faces (i mean in psychical way of course :p). First of all religion… This thema hurts so much the world nowadays and it has been so from the beginning of religious beliefs… I don’t it’s bad to believe in God, Allah or what so ever but what is quite funny is that many of the religions and mostly the christian talk about love, peace and all of this kind of nice stuff. There is no problem in that but we see that the ones who pretend to be the closest to the spirit of their religion are often the most brutal and harmful. They bend religion to their desires and their own profit and it has always been so for every religion. Religious wars exists for many reasons but mostly it’s way for a religion to subdue an other to its own beliefs. I could debate hours long about religion but i shall stop here. In conclusion, for me religion was a remedy for the humans suffering but time going it became a plague that diseased the world with inequalities and hatred. Why live? The question everyone asks himself at least once in his lifetime. There are quite many answers but each and everyone should find his own even if it’s very similar to someone else’s. And if you’ve found an answer but the object of your answer seems out of reach than don’t give up at once. Try over and over again with different methods and don’t start thinking you’re a failure or that kind of stuff otherwise it will be very difficult to take it out of your mind. Also don’t be afraid to ask for help some people would be glad to help you and for others it’s their job. Why die? Some give reasons not to live anymore and others reasons to die. Well even if some reasons seem to me completely absurd(can’t get back a laptop??? so what i never had one and i don’t feel any worse, it’s only an item you can replace it even if it’s not asap) i “understand” most of the other reasons and the only thing i have to say well why are you asking for help if wan’t to die? Just get on with it or keep trying living. In my case it would be more because i feel life won’t bring me anything anymore so the only thing i’m expecting is to die so i can discover one of the biggest secret of the world. If i am still here is that if i try to suicide and it failed. This would be the worst thing. I don’t care what is after death. Hell, Paradise or even, most probably, Nothing doesn’t scare me anymore. I’m eager to discover death and if it took me by surprise rather than i had go after it, it would be perfect. P.S : Sorry for my so poor english it’s not my native language

October 4, 2006, 16:11

Comment by Guess it BITCH!: User icon

I like the razor blade myself… I wanna dies a lot of the time… and the only reason i dont cut myself, is my mom. She id my worls, and if i was gone, she would have nothing..

I have actually tried to kill myself before, but i didnt prevail.. someone called.. RINGRINGRING.. Now every time i hear the phone ring.. I think of that day, exactly how i felt at the exact moment. I have scars.. wanna see??

November 26, 2006, 7:17

Comment by Dirty Harry: User icon

Life sucks !!! No way out. Everything looks in reach but nothing reaches on hand Everything stupid happens only to me, totally unexpected No idea how to move on further Just wanna to vanish from this world just like that as if I was never on this planet

Wish my death happens in my sleep, no pain, no feelings

November 28, 2006, 10:26

Comment by MyWorld: User icon

I’d kill myself if I felt like it. If you really want to, do it. I have nothing at all to live for. I spend everyday in a pointless daze. I have no direction, no desire, no passion, no purpose. I’m only here still here because I don’t even have the desire to day. I’m alive just for the fuck of it. I wouldn’t beg for my life if you held a gun to my head but I wouldn’t hold that same gun to my own head, either. I care so little about everything. Life’s boring me because of it. I wish I wanted to die. At least then I’d have something to hope for. Now, I’m just a fucking body. Just here. No purpose. No destination. Just plain fucking here.

November 29, 2006, 7:41

Comment by fayaz: User icon

i want to die and i have no reason but it has to happen by accident or by nature. i want to be DELETED. its the only thing i am looking forward too, i am excited when i think of death. to be nothing is surely the biggest adventure ever.

January 26, 2007, 14:51

Comment by Robyn: User icon

Where to start… You know i can say i know how some of you feel since i have been there before plenty of times and i am still here to day if it wasnt for my sister , one day she couldnt take it anymore and smashed a beer bottle and cut her rists if she hadnt made it to the hospital in time she wouldnt be here today and now she lives with the big scar and her arm that reminds her that the past is real but you have to go on and live your life… and am i thank ful yes ..because if you feel bad right now and dont want to go any further think of the people that you would lose and what you would lose on in life sure it may not be great right now but wait for the future and all that there is for you and how many people love you… i am so thank ful that i am here today and my sister is cause i wouldnt know what i would do with out her in my life

February 3, 2007, 7:51

Comment by doesn’t matter: User icon

First of all, does life really suck? No, it doesn’t. Life is a precious thing, to be enjoyed. It is hard, but what you put into it is exactly you get out of it.

I have been struggling with the whole “i hate my life” thing for MANY MANY years, since the third grade, i’m now 22. I thought that life sucked ass, but then, many years later, i realized that life sucked because i allowed it to suck.

life is hard, i’ll give you all that, and shitty things do happen and will keep happening, there is no avoiding it. i’ve been through a lot, i know the pain, the emptyness. the feeling of being dead inside, hollow and alone. but we make our own realities. for the longest time i just accepted it as my fate to have a life that sucked. i would have killed myself if not for my family. I have held a loaded fucking gun to my head, wanting to die, but just as my finger was about to squeeze the trigger, i had an epiphany.

in a single, drawn out moment, i saw all the people that i cared for, that i loved. the same people that supported me through my shitty times. i saw them standing over my dead body, and i saw how much it would hurt them if i were to take my own life. i hated myself for being so weak. i almost cost the people that loved me something that can NEVER be replaced, a life.

a few years later, my best friend shot himself. and i experienced that pain first hand. never would i wish it on anyone. it is the most horrible thing you can do to someone that cares about you.

i realized what truely mattered in life. make the MOST of it, cuz you’ll only get what you put into it. and you only have this one chance, this one life.

life is full of trials that we go through, pain to be delt with. Pull through it and be stronger for it.

Or take the cowards way out and selfishly waste the precious gift that we are all given. and hurt those that care about you most. its something i can never forgive my best friend for.

and no i’m not religous… but i do believe that a life is a precious thing, and it is a cowardly act to waste it by ending it over something so universal as having a hard time with life.

get out there and make a change in your life!

if you think nobody cares about you, then you are DEAD WRONG!

Killing yourself is to admit defeat and die a coward’s death. the strong find the strength of will and the help to survive.

i hope this reaches at least one person in time to make a difference.

February 11, 2007, 16:06

Comment by Anonymous: User icon

I hope you all die!!! Sonner than later!!! NTYCP IS a Grave-danger!!!

April 20, 2007, 7:34

Comment by miggidy: User icon

i’ve wanted to die since i was 14… i’m 14 by the way!!!

April 20, 2007, 7:35

Comment by a positive thinker: User icon

perhaps if you all would stop breathing my clean air and drinking my clean water you would cease to exist. please stop breathing my clean air and drinking my clean water. thanks and fuck you

April 22, 2007, 22:41

Comment by john: User icon

i nrrd a gun

July 23, 2007, 23:20

Comment by Park Jung Ah: User icon

I wanna die too. Do you mind if I follow your path??? I have lived a dreadful life in the past 20 years, I am tired. I want to sleep forever.

August 16, 2007, 8:48

Comment by cc: User icon

I don’t want to die but i don’t see the point in living eaither. there was a time when i was happy, free from pain and regret. but now pain and memories are all i have i been holding on beleving that thing will get better but ive been waiting 6 years and still nothings changed i have no friends noone that loves me and i feel so alone all the time. everytime i try to make friends someting always seems to happen to make them go away and i’m left alone and in pain again. maybe i should just end it now coz i’m sick of fighting and waiting for things to get better when they just keep getting worse.

September 12, 2007, 21:45

Comment by josah: User icon

I wanna die too, life is really really sucks. I am already a christian but nothings change. Life is so unworthy

December 2, 2007, 16:28

Comment by gotti: User icon

I dunno whats u p wit all you people…. enjoy life.. have fun work fuck play get married have kids get old and die lol its not that hard and time moves quick… everyone thinks of death… but half the fun is not knowing how were gonna die? no? shit before your done thinking about suicide you could be dead.. you never know.. shit i dont hate on no one.. but most these posts are fucking retarded.. whatever if your that unhappy your prob doing yourself a favor.. all i know is im gonna live it up till the day i die NATURALLY haha :)…..

July 21, 2009, 18:22

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August 14, 2009, 21:13

Comment by Older Hopefullywiser: User icon

I was once told by a wiser man: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Hope all of you get through your trials and tribulations. Good luck to all of you..

October 24, 2011, 21:00

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